random lagi

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i feel nervous and uneasy in new society

i feel awkward when introducing self with strangers by shaking hands
the more people present, the more uncomfortable i get
i spend a big amount of time thinking about future - or imagining about it as it seems like it's still a long long way down the road
and somehow it makes me worried (a little)
i doubt the path i am taking now
(but maybe it's just a matter of time)
i do prejudice unconsciously, but i try to ignore it as hard is i can
again, i worry a little too much