here comes

by

unexplainable sadness after great joy

lonesome after the merry

it's like the feeling of losing things
losing things that was just in your hand, just awhile ago
the feeling you had when all of the sudden you lost it, it disappears right in front of you
but how can you explain it, you can't even tell how you lost it since it actually still exists
and you can't even tell the disappearing since you never really witness it (it never really disappear)
but you still feel the emptiness indeed

unexplainable