now i feel like crying. but i simply just can't.

maybe, just maybe, have i been way too strict to myself?

by over-controlling my emotion? by not letting them taking over my control? by getting rid of exaggerating feelings and intentions to do emotional things? by trying not to do mood-ridden things or post an emotional tweets or postings?

i just tried to be a more controlled person. i just tried not to spread negative aura when i'm feeling bad. i just tried not to share bad things with others.

have i been way too strict to myself?

maybe i should give myself more excuses. it's okay to be honest to myself when noone else's around.

but right now i'm feeling so left out and feeling so extremely bad but...... i just can't express my emotions even to myself.

so somewhere inside my mind, is so overcrowded.