though i am facing a major problem (and some minors as well)
and though every path i might be heading to seems to be all risky
it seems like all of them scream 'i'm danger!' to me.
i should be going on after all.

it's not like i'm fearless.
i'm afraid. yes, i'm afraid at this very moment.
i'm afraid because i don't know what's ahead me.
what's waiting.
and i am not sure if i'm taking the right step.

i'm not sure.
but i'm going on after all.
if it's like i'm going to experience a harsh fall.
then it's okay.
however failure is something i can learn from.
and they say the sky looks even prettier if you see it after you fall, right?
i hope it does.

bismillah.
maybe i'll fall. maybe it will be a failure.
but i hope if then you ask me 'how was the fall?'
i can answer with pride:

"it was great"