aku suka permen jagung walaupun kalian bilang itu tidak enak

biarpun disodori coklat di depan hidung, aku tidak akan mau. biarpun coklat itu gratis. biarpun orang bilang coklat itu super-manis rasanya. biarpun orang bilang coklat itu paling enak sedunia. biarpun orang bilang kalau makan coklat itu aku bisa jadi seribu kali lebih cantik. biarpun orang bilang kalau makan coklat itu nanti akan muncul jin yang bisa mengabulkan tiga ribu permohonan. biarpun orang bilang kalau aku diberi kesempatan makan coklat itu sewaktu aku hidup, tapi menolak, berarti aku akan mati tidak tenang.

dan biarpun-biarpun yang lainnya, aku tetap tidak mau.
aku. tidak. mau. makan. coklat.
bukannya aku tidak suka. sungguh aku ingin merasakan coklat. manis tampaknya rasanya.
tapi aku takut karena coklat itu tampak terlalu manis, sampai-sampai mungkin habis aku makan coklat itu, makanan dan minuman apapun di dunia jadi terasa hambar.
jadi terasa hambar karena terlalu manisnya coklat itu yang mematikan semua rasa yang lain.
dan aku takut permen jagung kesukaanku, nanti juga akan jadi hambar.
makanya aku tidak mau makan coklat. karena permen jagung kesukaanku kata orang tidak begitu enak, tapi di lidahku enak, aku takut setelah aku makan coklat lidahku tidak akan bilang 'enak' lagi untuk permen jagung.




NO, PELISLAH! BUKA ARCHIVE LAMA NEMU VIDEO INI GUE NGAKAK SENDIRI TENGAH MALEM MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA =))))))) CACAT LU NO!! GILA GILA GILA GILA!!
(p.s. i know i'm gonna miss things like this, things you can only do in your white-gray uniform :'o)

buat yg mau foto pre-wedding di sini, harganya 100rb rupiah ya
btw foto ini bukan deklarasi penyimpangan seksual ya LOL
(sungguh maaf no bukan maksud apa-apa tapi da emang bagus ekspresinya megang abis)

prayer for dear God :)

God, i want to stay in this path forever
feel the need of coming to You
and to praise You, my dear Lord
and to get closer to You
to obtain a clearer mind and to calm the riot of the heart
God, i want to stay in this moment forever
feel the need of coming to You
not because i have a favor to ask You
but because praising You is what You delivered me to earth to do
i feel unsecured because i am unsure
that i really have no other intention, deep in my heart
and i am unsure that i have not been taking You for granted
maybe i haven't been that sincere
maybe I couldn't be that sincere

God, i want to stay at this point longer
maybe You would give me what i've been craving for
and what i've been asking You
so i could show my gratefulness
and prove that i won't leave You after i get what i want
or maybe You would give me failure
to test me if i'll still hold on to You
either way is alright, God
whichever may be Your decision
i'll stick on You
insya Allah :)

may i ask for one more, God?
whichever may be Your decision
i beg You please,
prepare my heart to accept
either way my fate would be
and give me more wisdom
to believe that You have given me the best path, eventually

bunch of thanks, Lord :)

terimakasih pak mario teguh

buat apa terus-terusan khawatir akan masa depan? masa depan itu ditentukan dari usaha di masa sekarang. kalau sekarang malah ngabisin waktu untuk sibuk mengkhawatirkan masa depan, ya masa depannya malah makin jadi mengkhawatirkan. atasi rasa khawatir itu dengan usaha yang maksimal dari sekarang, karena apa yang kita lakukan sekaranglah yang menentukan.


fear. not. the. failure. just. focus. on. the. goal. ;)

temper up on april

words were never sent the way they should be sent

and i need extra time to unfold the true meaning of yours as well
for you've never been really honest, never been
i pretended that i didn't know, i knew but i chose to keep silent
if that was all you need, leaving you with you alone
then that's all i will do, i'll leave you with you alone

how could i not see, dear, you didn't speak but you left a hint
i saw the song you just written down,
it's a beautiful happy song but i heard the minor tunes
i saw the sketches left when we played doodles
the faces were smiling but their eyebrows were curving down
so tell me how could i not see, how could i not see

we're a good pretenders
and we've been putting fake faces on each other
but i know you and i know you know me
because yeah, how could we not see

and when you feel up, somebody somewhere feels down

be grateful for your happiness but do respect those who are in pain

and yes, i know the pain you're in,
and i know that, since forever, misery seeks company
but nobody loves pain, so why showing your pain everywhere as if you want everybody to share the same pain?

sayangnya

waktunya sudah dekat

awan yang dulu tinggi di udara kini jadi kabut rendah di dekat kepala
sedikit lagi
sedikit lagi aku bisa mencuri awan
tapi awan tidak sepadat yang aku kira
yang bisa dengan mudah aku genggam lalu aku simpan seperti koleksi mainan
ya, sekarang awannya jadi kabut rendah di dekat kepala
tapi ternyata awan itu tidak putih dan bukan berupa gumpalan
dan tidak kontras dengan langit biru seperti kelihatannya saat dia masih tinggi di udara
awan itu............ tidak seperti apa-apa
hmm
tak apalah

terus sekarang gimana?

hhhhhhh.
again, it happened.
ha ha life, you're awesome.
great.
really.
:'((

ternyata sirik itu perasaan yg berguna :)

gara-gara gak mau kalah jadi usaha lebih keras kan ya kan
haha. sirik sm temen-temen yg udah jadi mahasiswa-mahasiswi nih :p