gw mau cerita kisah tragis cinta dan persahabatan binatang2 di gedung SR yang berujung matinya Hitler, kucing SR. kejadiannya hari Senin sore kemarin, dan Hitler udah dimakamin kemaren malem...

jadi di gedung SR dan sekitarnya (kantin arsi) itu ada 2 binatang yang berdomisili disitu, yah pokonya tiap hari keliarannya disitu. yang pertama namanya hitler, dia kucing kampung gitu warnanya putih ada corak itemnya, dan karena ada corak item di atas mulutnya yang mirip kumis hitler maka dia dinamai hitler. nah yang kedua itu anjing namanya roti, kenapa namanya roti gw kurang tau, pokonya dia adalah anjing ramah yang agak murahan gt sama siapa aja mau. hitler dan roti ini sebagai sesama binatang yang suka berkeliaran di daerah gedung sr, akhirnya jadi sahabat deket gitu. walopun yang satu anjing yang satu kucing dan persahabatan mungkin kaya ngelawan fitrah, tapi mereka ga peduli, seerat itu deh pokonya persahabatan mereka.
nah, ga lama ini, roti baru punya pacar, anjing betina warna coklat agak gold gitu. namanya siapa masih jadi polemik, kemaren baru isi kuesioner buat ngasih nama, tapi sementara ini nama yang paling populer sih morrin (jodohnya roti).

senin sore kemaren, di depan kantin arsi, hitler sama roti lagi main-main lucu gitu, ya seperti biasanya mereka main-main. mereka kaya saling gonggong-gonggongan dan meong-meongan dan kaya main-main berantem gitu. yah sama aja kaya kita kali ya, suka soksok berantem tapi berantem-berantem becanda antar temen gitu, nah hitler sama roti juga main kaya gitu. nah tapi pas mereka lagi maen, melintaslah morrin. morrin sebagai pendatang baru yang ga terlalu kenal hitler, salah paham dengan situasi yang dia liat. dia kira roti lagi berantem sama hitler. sebagai pacar baru yang mau cari muka dan soksok pahlawan, akhirnya dia (ceritanya) mau bantuin roti. morrin ngegigit hitler di lehernya. karena gigitan di leher itu lumayan fatal akhirnya hitler mati...... roti udah marah banget sama morrin sampe gonggong-gonggong marah gitu katanya, terus morrin jadi bingung gara-gara roti marah, akhirnya morrin pergi... dan mereka marahan gitu.

tragis banget kisah mereka, kalo lo masih ngerasa kurang bisa menghayati kisah tragis ini, coba aja lo bayangin, lo punya sahabat, terus lo baru jadian. tiba-tiba pacar baru lo ngebunuh sahabat lo. pas lo marah ke pacar lo, dia malah ninggalin lo gitu aja. gimana rasanya? dalem sobbbbb....


RIP Hitler, semoga hidupmu indah di alam sana ya....

kemana selama ini tangan menggapai-gapai
dan angan berandai-andai
sepertinya takkan pernah sampai.

is there something no one has ever googled before?

blessed are those who have faith in those unseen, unheard but never unfelt. for believing eases burden, and when the soul is in joy so the body will be.
blessed i am to have been introduced such a gleeful feeling of believing - of holding on to something - of having somewhere to come home always.

i really feel like unfriending you right now. don't misjudge, nothing's wrong. it's just that i really want to talk to a complete stranger about something, but i can only picture myself talking to you. it's bad, you know me too well.

a must have in my future house: a reading room with a window-seat.

lagi iseng browsing2 tiba2 liat ini.... open requirement buat internship program di RBR team gt. haha terus jadinya kepo-kepo, pengen sih rawrrr tapi background pendidikan kayanya ga memenuhi hahaha, terus baca2, katanya gausah pake CV atau pengalaman atau segala macem keribetan yang kaya gitu, tinggal ikut online test, kalo lulus dikasih kode terus bisa daftar, submit application form terus kalo berhasil tinggal video interview gt. ga ditanyain educational background atau experience sama sekali. rawrrr terus dengan semangat iseng2 berhadiah pun ikutan si online testnya dan ternyata... lulus! tring. dikasih kode gitu. abis itu mau daftar, pas mau daftar iseng (lagi) liat terms&conditionsnya, ternyata......
applicationnya cuma terbuka buat residents of UK aja
if only i could live in UK, oh dear milton keynes! duh beneran (agak) sedih ini mah T___T

i wish i could ignorantly dismiss all your opinion and thoughts about me, but i can't help, i cared about how you see me. i feel like wanting to jump out in front of you, be just freakin mad and confront your mocking look on me. but instead, i stayed shut. i knew the blame wasn't on you, for your disappointment and for walking away from me, but it wasn't on me either. i wish i could clear the strange look on your face, that looked as if saying; where has my long-lost dearest friend gone?
i wish i could live up to your expectation, but i couldn't. i wish i could do things that will continue to please and impress you; i could, but i wouldn't.


i hate how we are so helpless about that.

one of mankind's feelings i really hate to have, is feeling of superiority over others. like, what, i'm smarter  than you, i'm prettier, i'm wealthier, blah blah blah. it's disgusting, but i still have to admit that every now and then those feelings of superiority strike me. it's like, a thought you cannot avoid having, it crossed your mind for a moment or two. then you realized how low the thought was, you tried to erase it from your mind, then you immediately felt disgusted with yourself.